So.

Only a day away, huh?

Pretty freakin' cool. Tomorrow we begin recording this album that I've been working on and waiting for for what feels like forever. I have so many thoughts going through my head and I'm trying to weed out the ones that make me anxious and concentrate on the ones that make me feel like sipping champagne in a cocktail dress while watching fireworks. Just sheer delight. That's what I'm aiming for.

I feel all sappy about the whole thing. Like I want to send everyone I know flowers and say thank you for helping me along the way. I swear, I'm inches away from calling my dentist at home and saying, "I know those bleach trays didn't work that well, but thanks for trying. I love you for that. How are the kids? "
I think I'm emotional. Call me crazy. NO, don't. It'll make me cry.

I feel unbelievably fortunate to even be in the same room as this opportunity. The chance to record music that I love and believe in. What a fuckin' dream come true. Wow. So thank you to every last one of you who is reading this and somewhere inside believing in it too. May you never receive another parking ticket.


I know that I am only at the very very beginning of this whole mess, but being there makes me think about the road that led up to this point and all the people that have been and continue to be a part of it. I have the most amazing group of people around me that have been so supportive this whole time, all the while keeping me in check and making sure we had some fun along the way. My family away from my family... Javier, Josh, Brian and Chad.... I don't even have words to begin to thank these wonderful men for their time, lame-ass jokes, talent and encouragement. They are my brothers (but not like monks) and I look forward to all the good times ahead. ;)

I swear I'm acting like I'm writing a speech, but what the hell. Indulge I say. It's the year of the dog. wha?

As for the album itself...
I have experienced my own personal version of Sophie's Choice. (Meryl Streep movie where she has a heartwrenching decision of choosing between her children... not your light, Friday night flick. Don't recommend it on a depressed day.) My producer, manager, A&R rep and I have debated and concluded which songs will most likely end up on the album. My producer, Eric Rosse, and I have had many a long discussion about why some songs makes sense and why some songs don't. Don't get me started on the heartbreak of having to tell some of my favorite songs that they will have to wait to be realized in recorded form, but I feel like I'm really having to make some decisions that make sense for where I'm at right now. Like I've said before, I just want them to be true and honest representations of this music and that's really all I can do.

I haven't yet chosen a name for this album, but I did have a vision one night that it was supposed to be called "Little Voice". I feel like that phrase has a pretty profound meaning for me at this time in my life too, so I wouldn't be surprised if that ends up being the title. Either "Little Voice" or "Get Up and Dance 'Fore I Kick you In the Pants". You know, just a couple of titles I'm playing around with. I just put "Little Voice" up on myspace to give it some love, because the song came out pretty quickly after this whole vision came about. If you read the lyrics, you'll know what I mean.

Anyway, I've run off at the fingertips long enough. Thanks for indulging me. I will keep everyone updated on how things go and hopefully get some clips up on the website from inside the studio. Probably just us doing drugs or being in the hot tub with chicks or something.

sending you love always.

me